I wasnt thinking about gay sex at all. I just thought that it would be a one time thing where he would suck me off and i wouldnt even be into it. It was gonna be a secret and only a 1 time thing that only i would know about. When i got to college a few years later i went through a phase where i only wanted to be sucked and fucked by old senior white men, it all started from that moment i mentioned.